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Matt point of view:
Sabtina called me. And we don’t usually talk like that, so I got scared and picked up “Are you still in love with Luna?” She just asked.
“Wow” I immediately went outside the bus “Don’t say it like that, I’m not like-. When did i even-“
“Fine, whatever you wanna tell yourself. But do you want my help with it or not?” She asked and I sighed “Sure I want your help..”
“I asked her about you, just discreetly. And she said even if she did like you like that. You wouldn’t like her, ‘cause you had a crush on Julia Ernst or something? Girls like that” she explained and my heart dropped.
“No! Sure she’s pretty I guess, but we met at a party once, so I just followed her back and liked her pics to be polite!” I said quickly.
“Good, I knew it couldn’t be true” she said “No of course not. I’m sure she's nice. But she’s not Luna. Luna is not just pretty, she's breathtaking. And the way she smiles and her eyes-“
“Matt babe, she's my bestie. I know she’s amazing. But you need to tell her that” she said “I can’t just tell her that” i said.
“No, I know that. But discreetly make sure she forgets all about Julia. I think she’s gonna post tomorrow. Comment on it, a bit more thirsty than usual. Maybe even mention it when you talk to her that night” she explained.
“Good idea I’ll do that- wait- she told you we talk?” I asked “Yeah, she wouldn’t stop smiling when she was talking about it actually” she said and I felt myself smiling too.
“Really?”
Luna point of view:
I had posted a picture on insta, of me out eating with Larray, at a restaurant.
Matt always commented on it, but this time it was a bunch of cute little emojis and it made me really happy actually.
That night he called like usual “I really liked those pictures you posted today” he said and i was just a little taken aback “yea?”
“Yea, I could tell you were actually smiling. And Larray is an excellent photographer so of course it looked great” he said “Well thank you. And yeah i was laughing seconds after because our waiter saw us taking the pictures” i chuckled.
“Oh yeah that’s kinda awkward” he chuckled “But yeah i just hadn’t posted in a while. Thought maybe people had forgotten what i look like” i said “Nah, never” he said.
And then we talked like normal. But I was still so surprised at that.
And the next time Julia posted, it had been hours and he still hadn’t liked it.
A part of me was confused, but the other part was blushing at the fact that he’d told me it was a good picture of me
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Of course I had been out while the boys had been away, but not a lot.
So Tana finally convinced me to go clubbing with her.
I put on a little slu*tty dress and got drunk. Expecting to maybe flirt with someone, to get my mind off the whole Matt situation.
We had been at the club for a little while, and then I spotted Vinnie. Perfect target. I knew he liked me, but still respected me enough, not to stick his tongue down my throat immediately.
I went up to him and said hi. He looked pleased and we sat and talked by the bar.
He was of course flirting with me, ‘cause he knew Chris and I had broken up.
“You look good, i like the dress” he smirked lightly “Thank you, you look good too” i smiled “And i like your earrings..” he said “Really?”
“Hmm, and I like your eyes” he said and I felt the alcohol “I like your eyes too..” I smiled.
He was so close now, and I felt him put his hand up and hold my chin.
For some reason that put me back to reality. I pulled away “I’m sorry” he said
“No. don’t be sorry. I should be sorry..” I said, taking in a breath, “I really wish I could just kiss you, but I can't. Because im-“
“You’re in love with Matt” he said “what?” I asked “Tana told me, I was kinda hoping it wasn’t true because you know i'm interested. But I can tell you are..” he smiled.
“I'm so sorry..” I said tearing up “No that’s okay..” he hugged me softly “I really did wanna kiss you..” I said as we pulled back “That helps a lot actually” he chuckled and I smiled.
“I have to get some air..” I got up and went outside.
I looked at my phone and saw a missed call from Matt over an hour ago, after their show and then a text “You’re probably out, we'll talk tomorrow. Gn ;)”
My heart hurt. The fact that he could've had like a really bad day and I didn’t pick up.
And now I almost kissed someone else. And I was still hurting over Chris and so confused about everything.
I just grabbed my phone and dialled “Nick?” I asked “Yeah? Is everything okay?” He asked worried and I heard him walk outside “i'm not like hurt or anything, not physically anyway” i sniffled.
“What happened..? Weren’t you out with tana?” he asked.
“Yeah. And everything was fine, I thought I could just forget about everything. But then I ran into Vinnie. And we almost kissed” i said “Oh” he said, sounding disappointed.
“But we didn’t. Because I pulled away. And I stupidly had to apologise. Because- because, because I have feelings for Matt. I think. And I’m so sorry Nick. I know I ruined everything with Chris and now again. I’ve f*cked up our little group completely and im so sorry I haven’t been a better friend to you..” i cried.
“Wow wow slow down. You have not ruined anything, i am not mad at you. Chris was just as much in love with you, if not more. And you can’t help who you fall in love with….and if that happens to the both my brothers, then that’s a little complicated. But we’ll figure it out. Because I love you, we all do and we’re not gonna stop being friends because of something like this okay?” He said and I took a deep breath.
“Okay..thank you. I love you too” i sniffled “Good, we’ll figure it out when we get home” he said.
“Yeah, how's Matt? I feel so bad because I missed his call and i don't know if i can handle a day without talking to him” i explained and Nick chuckled “He’s coming out of the bus right now, if you wanna talk to him?” He asked “Yeah i really do”
“Hi? Is everything okay..?” Matt asked and i just wanted to cry again “Yeah i just…had a really sh*tty night. But I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell you about it yet. If that’s okay?” I said.
“Of course that’s okay. I’m really sorry you had a sh*tty night but i can wait” he said and I knew he really meant it “Thank you…how was your day? I’m so sorry I missed your call”
“That’s okay, the show today was kinda amazing actually. It was Malcolm's birthday, so it’s been very wholesome” he chuckled.
“Oh I'm so happy to hear that, tell him happy birthday for me. Because I’ve had a lot of alcohol and probably won’t be conscious tomorrow” i said making him laugh softly “Yeah I’ll tell him” he said.
“Matt..?” I said “Yea?” He asked, but I just couldn’t “I really miss you..” I said getting choked up again “I really miss you too…I wish you were here” he said “me too..”
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I was hanging out with Sabrina at my apartment and we were just talking. “So are you excited to see the boys in a week?”
“Yeah, god I miss them. Of course you’re great, but you know..” i smiled “Yeah I know. Maybe you can finally figure out everything once you see them in person. It’ll be easier” she said.
“Figure what out? Nothing’s gonna happen. Chris and I are broken up and Matt and I are friends, that’s not gonna change just cause they come home” i said “But what if it did?” She asked
“Why do you care so much? Like I said Matt doesn’t like me like that and it’s so dumb that i even started thinking about him like that. So can we just stop talking about it?” I said slightly frustrated “No, actually we can't”
“And why the f*ck not?”
“Because he’s in love with you! Matt is in love with you”
My stomach dropped. “It’s really not funny to joke like that Sab” I said “I’m not joking! You know I had my suspicions, so when I was really drunk I asked him how long he’s been in love with you. And he said he never stopped..” she said and i felt like everything had just turned upside down.
“And when were you planning on telling me that?” I asked “I didn’t wanna ruin it for you. I wanted you to figure it out, I wanted him to tell you” she said.
I just sat down in a chair, kinda staring into thin air “He’s in love with me. Like actually?” I asked “Yeah, why are you smiling?”
“I'm not!” I tried to stop “Omg I knew it! you’re actually in love with him too!”
“No! I mean i don't know” i said quickly “God i'm so excited now!”
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There were only three shows left of the tour, and I had been talking to Madi, as well as Laura and we had decided that I was gonna surprise the boys.
Tana was going to New york for some millionaire, who wanted to fly her out, so she offered to take me with her.
It was so hard to lie whenever I was talking to the boys. Especially Matt. Because I wanted to tell him that I was kinda anxious about getting on a private jet and having to be alone in the airport for a little while.
But I was just gonna have to deal with it.
And of course the flight went great. I even got a little drink, which helped a lot.
The boys had the day off, so when I was meeting them, we could all go out to eat after.
I was so excited. I couldn’t wait to hug them and it was just gonna be so great.
Laura picked me up from the airport, she had lied and told the boys she just had an errand to run.
“So are you excited?” She said in the car “Yeah I’ve missed them since the second i left” i chuckled “Well I know for sure they’ve missed you too. Especially Matt if I’m not mistaken” she smiled at me and I couldn’t help but smile “Oh”
We arrived at the venue. And I had asked Laura if maybe I could surprise Matt first, because I knew he hated surprises, with many people around and I didn’t wanna ruin it.
I had texted him a complete lie about Sabrina a couple hours before, so he had no idea.
I was honestly a little scared to see him, after what Sab told me. A part of me just didn’t believe it.
Laura told me to stay in the green room, while she went and got him.
“Is everything okay?” I heard Matt, as they walked down the hallway “Of course just go in” she said and he opened the door.
He stopped completely and I watched it process in his head.
He looked at Laura, then back at me.
He didn’t say anything, he just walked up and pulled me so tightly into his arms, kinda lifting me up.
My arms around his neck, and my hands into his hair, as I just held him so close to me.
I felt him shaking a little bit and softly rubbed his back “Hi” I chuckled tearing up “Hi..” he sniffled.
“You’re actually here..” he said “Yeah I’m here..” I smiled, squeezing him softly.
We just held onto each other for god knows how long, until Laura came back and cleared her throat.
“The others are on the bus now” she said “Right” i let go of Matt, wiping my eyes and he did too, smiling at me.
“I can’t wait to see Nick's face. I know he has absolutely no idea” i chuckled and kinda held onto Matt's wrist dragging him along.
“Yeah I sure didn’t” he chuckled.
We walked down a hallway and out back and I spotted Nick walking out of the bus.
His jaw fell “No! Omg Luna!” He literally ran up and hugged me, picking me up and spinning me around “Hi” I laughed as he put me back down.
“You little liar, you’re supposed to be at a spa with Sab” he laughed “I’m good at keeping secrets” I chuckled “guys!” Nick said and everyone walked out of the bus.
Madi of course knew, but she ran up and hugged me anyway.
Then Chris walked out and a huge smile on his face, as well as shock “No f*cking way!” He ran up and practically jumped into my arms.
“Hi” I laughed and hugged him as well “God I missed you” he said “I missed you too” i chuckled.
I hugged Malcolm and everyone else and then I turned back to Matt, who had just kinda gone in the background, after I was talking to everyone.
“We’re gonna leave for the restaurant in like 5 minutes, so everyone be ready okay?” Laura said.
As I walked up to Matt, I noticed his glossy eyes.
“Hi..” i smiled “Hi” he said, like he wanted to tell me something, but couldn’t
“You okay?” I smiled “Yeah. Just…happy” he said “Come on, i'm sure you need something on the bus and i wanna see the inside” I grabbed his hand and dragged him along.
